Here's what I "know" about me, up until and in this now moment... and the ones that come as I write this... I was born directly into the hands of unconditional love. I have watched, I have experienced, I have lived through the pain and the joy. I love to laugh and I love to cry. I have my own definition for most everything, including pain, joy, and love ;) I am deeply connected and in love with the moon. I know this because I feel it as so. Everything that I know, I "know" because I feel it as so. I'm curious. Someone on the airplane yesterday listened to me for a few moments, we were talking about dance and life and I was expressing my feelings about something, and she told me "well, that's because you're a healer, not a technician." Labels make me laugh, but sometimes they're useful. I can talk for hours and not say anything, I can talk for a minute and change someone's world (so I hear). When I talk I'm often listening to myself, not coming up with what is coming out of my mouth. I've been deep in depression and I've vibrated in bliss beyond my knowing how to express in words. I rarely think before I act. This has proven to be very good for me. In the past I've tried to be all sorts of different people, the college prep school student, the hippie, the counsellor, the cheerleader (that was a bazaar day), the crazy college student, the dancer, the mom, the seeker, the savior, the wounded, the enlightened, the provider, the pleaser, the daughter, the shallow, the deep, the experienced, the naive, the craving, the satisfied, the fighter, the creator, the destroyer, the bad-ass, the willing, the adventurer, the settled, the calm, the expressive, the quiet and on and on. I've always had more than enough time and resources to play these parts. Something happened and all of the sudden, I couldn't do it anymore. I didn't choose that I couldn't. I didn't decide or somehow reach the conclusion in my mind that I couldn't, I just couldn't. I can't "try" to "be". I can only be. I can't "try" to "do". I can only do. Every moment is different. I am changing with every breath. Who knows what I would have written if this had been sent to me a week ago. Which is why I got it now, so you could read this, I guess ;-) The only thing I know for sure is this, I am changing with every breath. There are some seeming constants, some things that have been "true" for as long as I can remember. These things you will learn about me as we go. I love to learn and unlearn and share and listen, question and discover, and laugh and play as I do. I'm deeply excited for this trip! I suppose I should tell you, my name is Kyna Lucile, my physical host body is 21 years old, my birthday is April 26th, at 1:51pm, and I live in San Francisco, CA. When people ask me what I do my heart smiles and laughs, I don't have a title. So my answers tend to vary. My days are filled with dance, exercise, whatever that individual, unique day brings, what many people call "spiritual/energy work", which makes my heart smile and laugh some more, perhaps with a wink this time. I enjoy being present in the moment, even if it doesn't seem like a moment of joy. Why am I attracted to Egypt? That's a really great question I'm sure I'll discover more fully while we're there. What I know is this. When I was 18, I was standing in my pantry, for some reason I said "Mom, I need to go to Wales." She said, "Ok." A few months later I went to Wales. In Wales, more happened than I even know a term for. One of the things that happened was I found myself in the Egypt Museum, at Swansea University. Long story short, I found myself at "home" there, and said to my mom, I have to go to Egypt. She said, yes I know. I declared to the Universe a few days ago that I wanted to go to Egypt, on this trip, under no uncertain terms. Everything fell beautifully, wonderfully, better than I ever imagined, right in to place. Apparently now is the time! So I'm going!
Here's what I "know" about me, up until and in this now moment... and the ones that come as I write this... I was born directly into the hands of unconditional love. I have watched, I have experienced, I have lived through the pain and the joy. I love to laugh and I love to cry. I have my own definition for most everything, including pain, joy, and love ;) I am deeply connected and in love with the moon. I know this because I feel it as so. Everything that I know, I "know" because I feel it as so. I'm curious. Someone on the airplane yesterday listened to me for a few moments, we were talking about dance and life and I was expressing my feelings about something, and she told me "well, that's because you're a healer, not a technician." Labels make me laugh, but sometimes they're useful. I can talk for hours and not say anything, I can talk for a minute and change someone's world (so I hear). When I talk I'm often listening to myself, not coming up with what is coming out of my mouth. I've been deep in depression and I've vibrated in bliss beyond my knowing how to express in words. I rarely think before I act. This has proven to be very good for me. In the past I've tried to be all sorts of different people, the college prep school student, the hippie, the counsellor, the cheerleader (that was a bazaar day), the crazy college student, the dancer, the mom, the seeker, the savior, the wounded, the enlightened, the provider, the pleaser, the daughter, the shallow, the deep, the experienced, the naive, the craving, the satisfied, the fighter, the creator, the destroyer, the bad-ass, the willing, the adventurer, the settled, the calm, the expressive, the quiet and on and on. I've always had more than enough time and resources to play these parts. Something happened and all of the sudden, I couldn't do it anymore. I didn't choose that I couldn't. I didn't decide or somehow reach the conclusion in my mind that I couldn't, I just couldn't. I can't "try" to "be". I can only be. I can't "try" to "do". I can only do. Every moment is different. I am changing with every breath. Who knows what I would have written if this had been sent to me a week ago. Which is why I got it now, so you could read this, I guess ;-) The only thing I know for sure is this, I am changing with every breath. There are some seeming constants, some things that have been "true" for as long as I can remember. These things you will learn about me as we go. I love to learn and unlearn and share and listen, question and discover, and laugh and play as I do. I'm deeply excited for this trip! I suppose I should tell you, my name is Kyna Lucile, my physical host body is 21 years old, my birthday is April 26th, at 1:51pm, and I live in San Francisco, CA. When people ask me what I do my heart smiles and laughs, I don't have a title. So my answers tend to vary. My days are filled with dance, exercise, whatever that individual, unique day brings, what many people call "spiritual/energy work", which makes my heart smile and laugh some more, perhaps with a wink this time. I enjoy being present in the moment, even if it doesn't seem like a moment of joy. Why am I attracted to Egypt? That's a really great question I'm sure I'll discover more fully while we're there. What I know is this. When I was 18, I was standing in my pantry, for some reason I said "Mom, I need to go to Wales." She said, "Ok." A few months later I went to Wales. In Wales, more happened than I even know a term for. One of the things that happened was I found myself in the Egypt Museum, at Swansea University. Long story short, I found myself at "home" there, and said to my mom, I have to go to Egypt. She said, yes I know. I declared to the Universe a few days ago that I wanted to go to Egypt, on this trip, under no uncertain terms. Everything fell beautifully, wonderfully, better than I ever imagined, right in to place. Apparently now is the time! So I'm going!
ReplyDeleteThats awesome! How long will you be there for? Which parts are you going to?
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